melorapazlar replied to your post: melorapazlar replied to your post:   i get ASMR…

it’s very pleasant for me, yes. but the ~subculture creeps me the fuck out omg. I found out the name from one of those dumb tumblr did-you-kno posts (it referred to head-tingling, so I was curious enough to google it).

yep, yep, it gets weird fast, why would i want to pretend i’m having an EYE EXAM by someone who can only speak in WHISPERS

but then i just found the most poetic comment on an article about it, awww.

But I don’t think it’s all that accurate (or even helpful) to characterize this experience as a “condition” of any kind. It seems to me that far (far) too often we noun our verbs, turning what are actually quite visceral, living experiences into something that fits neatly in our brainbox, as if we could tame the wildness. Maybe doing is useful to a point, but need we diminish the delicious mystery of this phenomenon with such a dry and pointedly unpoetic epithet? I don’t get it.

melorapazlar replied to your post:  

i get ASMR and i didn’t know the term until recently! it’s like this head-tingly feeling that occurs when i hear someone speaking… theatrically or instructively, idk.

oh my gosh i’m glad someone knows what i’m talking about because the entire tag for it is sort of weirdly fetishy and there are all these whisper fake haircut videos on youtube, it’s like a whole subculture that i just sort of stumbled upon ten minutes ago! when i’m buzzed i feel like all the air in my body is rising into my head and everything just sort of floats up and then it shimmies back down in little waves (one time i actually…stood…up because i felt like my body was floating upwards how embarrassing). but LIKE, as soon as i read the description of it i realized that it’s definitely something i experience when sober, too? thinking too hard about it makes it feel kind of uncomfortable though (or maybe it’s psychosomatic-ish). hmm.

is it pleasant for you? how did you find out what it was called? i’m totally fascinated by this.

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I HAVE DONE THIS.

it was very comforting????!!!!

melorapazlar replied to your post: melorapazlar replied to your post: omg wait which…

oh my god help i don’t need to be looking at attractive tomboyish women right now why did you LINK ALLMTHose

melorapazlar replied to your post: omg wait which of those blogs is it (i stalk a lot of them but follow none)

eeeeeeek. I guess I’ll continue to look at the pretty pictures and pretend the owner isn’t a dick. but eeeeek.

EEEK was pretty much my reaction as well. the completely predictable Tumblr Social Justice play of racism/call-out/denial & de-railing unfolded before my very eyes. 

i follow an embarrassing number of those sorts of blogs, but i haven’t overdosed on it yet and most of it is a combination of style inspiration and pretty things/people to oogle and sigh over. i wish that tumblr as a platform allowed for blogs that functioned more like lj communities? where at least there were usually multiple mods to keep things from skewing too much to one individual’s fuckeries. 

melorapazlar replied to your post: “It’s true I’ve done a lot of stuff with the…

this book’s take on Kira/Dax is k i l l i n g me

sAME like, a lot of the time i feel like the writers kind of miss their own points but it also comes out sounding really gay so, okay, that’s fine, tell me more about kira coming on to dax

melorapazlar replied to your post: tonight’s going to make two days in a row without…

oh no, why?!

blublub it’s mostly my own fault, i always wait til the last minute to call in refills because i hate making non-personal phone calls, and this time i actually needed a new script and i don’t like my psychiatrist so i didn’t want to make an appointment. i called it in on time though and it would have been fine cause my mom promised she would pick it up for me since i was going to be gone all day for the wedding, but she forGOT and they closed at 2 today WHAT KIND OF PHARMACY CLOSES AT 2 PM and how am i supposed to get out before 2 when i was up past 6 exhausted but unable to sleep

the good thing is that i have both today and tomorrow off of work, so the sleep stuff shouldn’t mess with my ~responsibilities but god half life of 6 hours i hope this doesn’t fuck me over emotionally

melorapazlar replied to your post: tonight on deep space nine: nog has ptsd and…

i’m so scared to continue because everything is so HEAVY. i might take an official break and like, watch farscape in between. ds9 is not for the faint of heart.

where did you leave off?

i KNOW like, season seven is taking me a looong time, partly because i don’t want it to end, and partly because i’m just terrified of the emotional typhoon in my horizon. i miss the characters when i’m not watching the show but i am also afraid because i don’t want HORRIBLE THINGS TO HAPPEN TO THEM

also i’m just so glad that we finally, finally have an episode that actually deals directly (and a bit clumsily, but!!) with trauma survival, which is something we theoretically SHOULD have seen hundreds of times over by now but which the franchise has always sidestepped

ugh good job ds9 thanks for ruining me